WORD.

I have a dream.

No not like Martin.

I just have this dream.

That I can do whatever I want, and no one will think twice
.That I can really be happy with my job, not just pretending to smile.
That I canhave a real, true group of friends in one place close to me at anytime, not scattered all over Ohio.

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I’ve been gone for a while.
Only because I haven’t been inspired.
I’m trying to do whatever is needed to get inspired again.
I need inspiration.

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I’m making big changes in my life right now.
It can go in many different directions.
I’m very nervous about making the wrong choice.
But I know I’m done with standing around.

I wonder what it’s like to seriously do whatever, say whatever..not think twice..not answer to anyone or anything..completly let the fuck go. I bet it’s nice. It’s sad none of us do that..

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I hate my job.

I hate people who feel they are superior.

I hate when people wanna play the woe is me game, when they should be pretty damn thankful for the life they were given.

I also hate being sick.

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But I love my husband.

I love our life together.

I love the people in my life.

I love the opportunities I get everyday.

So it balances out.

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I am watching “How Bruce Lee Changed My Life.”
Scoff if you will, Boyds.

But it is really inspiring.
How he believed eveyone needs to be themselves whole heartedly, uhashamed, and at all time. Fuck the cost. I love that. That must be very freeing.

I like how I see people I know/work with at the gym. It’s always very weird and awkward. Do you say hello? Do you shake their sweaty hand with yours? Does anyone ever say, “Man my workout really rocked today, how was yours?

And what is up with shows ending in to be continued? I certainly can’t do that in my job.. “Oh ok I did half the haircut, can you come by next week so I finish up?”

Lol.