

No not like Martin.
I just have this dream.
That I can do whatever I want, and no one will think twice
.That I can really be happy with my job, not just pretending to smile.
That I canhave a real, true group of friends in one place close to me at anytime, not scattered all over Ohio.
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I’ve been gone for a while.
Only because I haven’t been inspired.
I’m trying to do whatever is needed to get inspired again.
I need inspiration.
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I’m making big changes in my life right now.
It can go in many different directions.
I’m very nervous about making the wrong choice.
But I know I’m done with standing around.
I wonder what it’s like to seriously do whatever, say whatever..not think twice..not answer to anyone or anything..completly let the fuck go. I bet it’s nice. It’s sad none of us do that..